Nothing much

Nothing much . I just give up on finding people that i should talk to . So im doing this to make me feel a little bit better . 

One person shows up and telling me that im no good in a friendship . That person told me that im ego, belagak bagus dan rasa diri ni gempak . 

I admitted that sometimes i felt those but with my friends ? Im not . That person also told me that i should change and 'muhasabah diri' . Seriously aku selalu baca quotes that saying yg 

"Bestfriends will never ask you to change , 

but they'll accept you whoever you are ."

I know , bad attitude should not remain . Tapi since aku berkawan ni , aku banyak korbankan perasaan marah aku , pendam sakit hati aku , telan semua ayat ayat perli dorang , korbankan masa duit aku pergi sana sini utk dorg . Tapi on this day , i've been told that aku ni tak menghargai kawan kawan aku ?????

Im aquarius , i dont show people my feelings . 

Dah banyak kali sangat dah aku telan those fights . Aku tanya one of them , what happened . That other person pon no idea , Tapi that person keep using KITORANG and i dont know why . I just sick of having girls bestfriend . too much drama , im just not fit in for them , yelaa aku ni kan belagak bagus . Perempuan mana boleh ada org lain yg lgi bagus dari dorang . INSECURE i guess . Sebab tu kalau kita tgok lelaki punya friendship sampai liang lahad dorang masuk hantar membe . Sebab apa ? Sebab dorang less drama . Tegur direct , tak payah 'NAK JAGA HATI MEMBE' . 

Dan aku pernah baca jugak story pasal perempuan yg liar bff dgn perempuan baik . Perempuan baik tu solat tak tinggal pon kena sound dgn perempuan liar tu . "Kenapa kau tak tegur aku selama ni ? Aku ambik barang , minum arak semua kau biar je . Kau nak masuk syurga sorang-sorang eh ?" And so i guess that happened to me . Im a girl with dont know what happened with my surroundings getting fire with someone that never tegur me when i've been jerk in front of that person eyes . Because of 'NAK JAGA HATI MEMBE' punya pasal . 

So i guess you dont deserve to tell me what happen when now , IT'S TOO LATE . 

Now i know why one of us left . I felt what she felt . She just feels that nobody around her and on the same time she be surrounded by people that keep bashing her till she decides to left . Im sorry i've been one of the jerk . And for you , i think you the one that have to change your behaviour . 

Yelaa , dalam kalangan kita semua , cuba kau fikir balik siapa yg tak pernah kau gaduh atau bermasalah ? You had so much more bad memory with each one of us . So janganlah cop aku sorang je yg keep ego belagak bagus dan gempak sepertimana dipersoalkan oleh kau . oh aa , muhasabah diri tu jugak :) And pls stop making perbesarkan masalah . Tak suka tu cakap je tak suka , nak tegur tegur je . Hati sendiri pon tak jaga nak jaga hati membe pulak hmmm .............